January 02nd, 2021

I think I fell pretty instantly, for me at least, in love with Michael Owens is because I thought he really knew who he was. That is where I was in life too and its what I needed in a partner. I didn't want to be a teacher, mentor or guru to someone I was intimate with, I would feel like a parent. I wanted to share emotions and thoughts but I wanted to be completely in sync with that person, sharing our thoughts so we could always be at our full potential with each other. I wanted a strong other half that wanted to help change the world with me, without dying in the process. I wanted to sing, dance, be goofy and enjoy life everyday, knowing when he needed me, needed to confide in me, needed to vent but I didn't want to have to teach my lover to know what he liked, disliked or what they wanted in as partner in case once they found out I wasn't the one they wanted to be with. I never want to get divorced unless I marry someone for the sole purpose of getting them citizenship which was the case for hanging out with Warwick a second time, but obviously we didn't go through with anything.